limyenton

I am still stuck with thoughts of you.

So now we don't ignore each other, but every time you say 'hi', I wish to have a conversation. Nah, I guess time will tell. I'm wondering do you treat everyone the same way? You made me feel I'm something to you, but the next moment, a thought of you being with the other girls sucks. I can never have a mind full of positive thoughts. I thought I could get back up, but a small thought can dash everything.

Mind over matter. I am actually looking forward to IPP. But at the same time, don't want to. I will not get a chance to see you till I'm back after ten weeks. You will be away for OBT enjoying the ten days. I remember all of us were excited when we were told about the trip. I thought we could go together but I guess not.

'I hate clubbing girls' 'I still miss my ex girlfriend at times' 'Our friendship has more years to come' etc are what etched in my mind, even though it doesn't concern me. I admit that I might have pushed you away with my words and actions. But I was protective over my heart more than you. I never wanted anything to repeat and I never thought you would be important in my life. On the first day you added me on bbm, I didn't think much. But when you were away, I thought 'hey this boy is treating me like I'm the only girl in the world'. I didn't want to give it a try because all I wanted was to see what happens next. Little did I know you said you are not ignoring me and you did the next day.

I thought it was all right for you to take hours to reply. But the reality stricken me. You were never gonna reply me anymore. It took me days to cry over it while you were happily enjoying yourself. I thought you were different, I thought you will be by my side. I guess I was wrong. Seeing you hanging out with other girls makes me feel stupid, makes me feel like a fool. You may think I don't know you went clubbing and talk to many girls which are so not you. I didn't speak a word to you because I know I'm in not position to say anything. You may think I don't care, but it hurts me. I guess you didn't realise how much better my life is with you in it. Anyone can make me laugh and smile, but only one can make me happy.

I guess that's all I have been keeping from you, I don't know what else I can do to take you back. IMY.

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Chinese New Year is round the corner. Nothing special is gonna happen, except chalet! Friends and relatives are coming over for celebration. That's a good thing I should say. :)

Okay, I've decided to set everything aside, including the only thing that has been bothering me for weeks. Ive learn to give you time before you come back. There is no point forcing anything from you, if you don't wish to do it. I guess after these few nights, I'm feeling so much better. Even though I don't know what has happened for you to make that decision, I know it's regarding me. I'm really waiting for the day when you wake up and ' BOOM! I need to tell her now '. Nah, enough for this.

(ok this is annoying me) I accidentally click on undo button and everything I wanted to say is gone.

So I'm not gonna type all out again, until the day I'm really bored and I remember about it then I post k. :)

Bestie can't make it for chalet :( it has been a long time since I last had a proper talk with him. :(

Not that I don't want you, because I do. Just that I will not chase after you like how I used to.

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It has been twelve days since I last woke up to a good morning text and sleep with a goodnight text.

I guess sometimes we know what we have, and we thought it will be something we won't lose. But sometimes, we are wrong. That's called heartbreak. Expectations lead to more disappointments.

Hi my best friend. Yeah, we may not be talking everyday but be assured I will never leave you too. We have been through so much together, be it good or bad times. You said it is almost impossible to forget me. For the past few weeks, I thought I am fine without texting you. Not because I have someone else, but I think i am fine with this this way. After knowing your views about not texting, I was really disappointed. I do not ditch old friends for new ones, please don't think this way of me. I started pushing everyone away to protect myself over and over again. Yeah, and the reason is you. It is not because I'm not over you. I just want a peaceful life. All those memories will never be forgotten. I hope you won't too. Honestly, I'm really shocked after the twitter conversation with you this morning. It is not something I wouldn't expect though. I hope you will last long with her. Luckily I'm not affected by it right now. If not I will give up on life.

Yes the second you. I never thought distancing will lead to what we are like right now. We seem to be more than teammates last time, but I feel like stranger to you. Never wish things will end up like this. Maybe we weren't meant to be close in the first place. More or less, we will have to work together more in future. Get things right.

The last you. Twelve days already. Even though we know each other barely for a month plus, I feel that you are a friend worth to keep and treasure. The days you were overseas were the days God test if we will drift. I thought we have passed it but soon, things went wrong. You left me hanging, without an explanation. I really hope things will change for the better. I never thought you would reply me that day. I really wanted to support you on Sunday, a surprise visit. But I didn't know we will end up like this. If it wasn't for what had happened, I guess I will be a happy kid like what you said. Never mind, I will wait for your replies, your thoughts. I'm sure things will turn out good soon, real soon. Take care my dear friend. (:

Don't take things for granted, good things are worth the wait.

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I'm gonna head down to school for meeting and training soon. A short post will do.

Anyway, the days in school are short since there are only two days this week. Projects and assignments are catching up with me and there is no other way I can run away from it. Shall be a good girl to finish up my parts for projects before I'm being marked down by my peers.

School is coming to an end, in 3 weeks! Can't wait for IPP to be over. And I can't attend OB Taiwan this year because of IPP :( #whatawaste

Oh wait I cannot forget to post this, I have a group of encouraging friends around me. <3 without you guys, I don't know how I will be able to overcome all the obstacles in my life. Thank you EP! And not forgetting LIJIEEEEE. The both of them are always there for me even though they are busy with their own life. This is what friends are for right? I had this in my ears for the longest time because they never fail to remind me how life can be so much better if I think it on a brighter side.

I'm never gonna leave you two, sisters4life. (:

(better get ready before I'm late to meet Mr President!!)

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